Something is happening with my sight.
I’ve never had very good vision. I’ve been told that I’m blind as a bat all my life. My first optician questioned how I could see my friends in the hallway at school or the blackboard at all. My contacts are negative a zillion and although my script has never changed, what I can comprehend with my eyes has been feeling a little funky. Sometimes it feels like I’m losing my vision and other times I feel like I’m seeing everything for the first time.
It’s when I look too far ahead of me that all seems fuzzy. I have a general idea of what is in the distance but no clear path as to how to get there. It feels rocky at best but mostly neglectful. Like, shame on me for knowing for sure what to expect.
It’s when I focus on what’s just beyond my nose that I can see clearly. As if I’ve never seen a spiderweb in the sunlight before, the colors of my neighbors on the desert landscape of Los Angeles. I can see the world crystal clear when I focus on the directly, the right in front, the right here. Imagine that.
My motto for 2015 was “<em>be aware</em>”. In 2016 we are graduating to “<em>use your eyes</em>”. A seemingly simple everyday task that gets muddled by what’s in the distance. <em>Be aware</em> of what’s within your peripheral. It is the little steps that make up the larger picture.
<em> There’s only one way to eat an elephant. One bite at a time.</em>